Saying Goodbye

Actually I was planing to say goodbye to my school, teachers and classmates by my blog next Tuesday because it is my birthday. It is also a right time to do it for I have been taking a rest for a long time; therefore, I desire to have a different and new life after graduation.  I think most of our classmates maybe will not see or contact often or even do not see or contact after leaving school. However, there was a intimate friend who I did not really want to say goodbye, and I had to say goodbye to her on Saturday night. She had been serious ill for several months. I know what I think was really childish and immature, but I just could not say goodbye in person because I was too afraid and sad to do it. At last, I still went to the hospital to see her and say goodbye although my friend could not hear it anymore.

To our classmates, I want to say thank you to them although I did not talk a lot to each classmate. Because of them, we became a united and studious class. To our teachers, I would like to thank them, too because of their kindness and patience. Without their understanding, most of us probably would not graduate successfully this year. Although there were a lot of issue happening in two years, I still think each classmate cares about our class. It is just because each person has a different view and choice of issue; therefore, there are a lot disagreement and misunderstanding. It is actually a lesson to me, too.

To be honest, I start to hate saying goodbye, because it is always sad and hurting. The meaning of goodbye in Chinese is 再見(zai jian) which means you might see the person to whom you say goodbye . When you say goodbye to someone who is not no longer exist in the world, it sounds ironic, doesn't it?  I once though that you may just say goodbye to someone who is not young but elder; however, I need to change my thinking. Although I cherish every memory I had, the pain is still there. This such terrible feeling just could not leave from me; in contrast, it recalls all sorrowful memories to me, as well.