Saying Goodbye

Actually I was planing to say goodbye to my school, teachers and classmates by my blog next Tuesday because it is my birthday. It is also a right time to do it for I have been taking a rest for a long time; therefore, I desire to have a different and new life after graduation.  I think most of our classmates maybe will not see or contact often or even do not see or contact after leaving school. However, there was a intimate friend who I did not really want to say goodbye, and I had to say goodbye to her on Saturday night. She had been serious ill for several months. I know what I think was really childish and immature, but I just could not say goodbye in person because I was too afraid and sad to do it. At last, I still went to the hospital to see her and say goodbye although my friend could not hear it anymore.

To our classmates, I want to say thank you to them although I did not talk a lot to each classmate. Because of them, we became a united and studious class. To our teachers, I would like to thank them, too because of their kindness and patience. Without their understanding, most of us probably would not graduate successfully this year. Although there were a lot of issue happening in two years, I still think each classmate cares about our class. It is just because each person has a different view and choice of issue; therefore, there are a lot disagreement and misunderstanding. It is actually a lesson to me, too.

To be honest, I start to hate saying goodbye, because it is always sad and hurting. The meaning of goodbye in Chinese is 再見(zai jian) which means you might see the person to whom you say goodbye . When you say goodbye to someone who is not no longer exist in the world, it sounds ironic, doesn't it?  I once though that you may just say goodbye to someone who is not young but elder; however, I need to change my thinking. Although I cherish every memory I had, the pain is still there. This such terrible feeling just could not leave from me; in contrast, it recalls all sorrowful memories to me, as well.

Driving

Driving is quite a challenge job to me. I got my driving licence in 2004. I only drove one time on the public place except for the training field, and I did not drive anymore since then. It was not a good experience, so I am still afraid of driving now. When I know my female friends can drove to work or school, it is really impressed me.

7 years ago, my sister took my brother and I to Danshui by driving in order to practice driving. My sister is already an experienced driver and we were just beginners, so she wanted to assist and give us a practical driving lesson. She drive to Danshui first then it was my brother's turn to practice driving from Danshui to Baishawan. He was not at ease at first, but he was getting better and better after a while. When we were sitting in the car, both my sister and I were a little bit nervous. It was because we knew he was new, but we also knew he was OK and much confident after some time. At last, it was my turn to practice driving form Danshui to home. I only remembered that there were countless cars beside my car and the drivers were in a
hurry. There were a lot of cars passing my car because that day was one of Chinese New Year holidays and it was in rush hour of going  home. My feet and body were so stiff after driving home. The most funny thing was that my sister and brother said, "They will never ever  in my car again because I am a dangerous driver; How could I speed up when I make a turn?" I think I did that because I thought it was just like riding a scooter; however, it was totally different. I am pretty sure they were frightened by me at that time.

After it, I have never ever drove a car because it was a terrible experience. Of course, I know I just need more practice, but I still do not have the confidence and courage. From my experience of riding a scooter, maybe I just  need to buy my own car then I have a courage to drive because it is how I start riding my scooter. I still do not give up driving and I do look forward to driving without worring one day although I am still concerned about transferring to another lane when there are a lot of cars beside my car.

Hiking

Hiking is one of my favorite outdoor activities. I have been several experiences in Australia so far. One of experiences was in 2007 and it made me have a deep impression.

I remembered that one time I went hiking with an experienced friend in the Grampians in VictoriaI. I was very slow and tired at the beginning because I did not get enough sleeping last night. The weather was not nice but drizzly and cold, so it made my hiking more difficult than I thought. As my friend is used to doing all outdoor activities; especially, hiking is a piece of cake for him because it is part of his job. I was a bit angry at myself  for the first some minutes, and my friend found out I was like a turtle far away from him. He was nice to stop and wait for me. After catching him up, we sat down and had breakfast for few minutes at stairs. I told him that I stayed here to wait for him back with a angry tone. To be honest, I did not believe I could go on the top of  the mountain at that time; however, I made it at last.  I was glad my friend did not give me up. If he had gave me up, I would not seen this such spectacular view, and would not had an amazing experience.

Hiking is more like a challenge to me because it competes with not only your physical but your mental. If you think your life is like going hiking, it will not be disappointed you for it is always full of surprises and adventures. During this journey you could  sometimes meet some good companies, but sometime you could not. The most interesting is that you will never ever know what is happening next in your life. I have to say that  although I do not like it sometimes and do not have many choices, I still have to try to accept and overcome it. If you enjoy it, it is even better.

A Song- A Stranger 陌生人

Two days ago, I took a bus home after visiting a close friend at Mackay Memorial Hospital. When I turned on the music, I could not stop listening to a song- A Stranger by Tanya Chua. The weather was bad with heavy clouds and some drizzle on my way home. The bus picked up passengers one stop after another stop and I was thoroughly immersed in music with a sad feeling.

I like the melody of the song and the way of the singer expresses it. Tanya is from Singapore and she was born in 1975. She is also a singer, songwriter, composer, and recorder producer. Her best achievement  was winning a prize in the Asia Song Festival in 1997. She is living in Taiwan now and she loves yoga,too. This year her concert was held in March 26.

I like to listen to the music, so I am easy indulge myself in it; especially, when I am in a bad mood ,it is a very good way to cheer me up or forget some worries for a moment. I also found that when you listen to a song, it can recall some memories of a person or a thing to you. It is very interesting, isn't ?

Let Nature Take Its Course

There was something happening around me recently. Most of things made me think about what I should  do or what I should  not do about them.  My friends and my school are two main parts taking most of time of  my life so far; as a result, they are also easy to influence me on my daily mood and feelings.

Writing used to a way I like to express my emotions, but I have stopped writing for a long time. I had kept writing in my diary for several years and I quitted it two years ago. The reason I like to write in my diary is because writing makes me free my pressure and  have a feeling of release. However, when I felt it could not help me to deal with my pressure and trouble, I stopped writing. Right now, I have a feeling which is a pity  that I give up this good habit.

Now, I like reading no matter in Chinese or English. Novels are my favorite reading;especially, I like translated novels very much. I have found some novels as my collections. I also started reading Reader's Digest in April because I want to improve  English writing skill and English reading comprehension, and enhance vocabulary, too.

Something still bothers me now. This blog helps me to express my feeling in some ways. I do not know why I meet some obstacles  to find my interests back and it seems to trouble me . I think I should let nature take its course.